PG-13! Potential TRIGGER WARNING for survivors of sexual assault.
They gave her a suite of rooms, all her own, large, elegantly furnished, and with a guard stationed outside the door. The guard was a woman, and she never came in. Justus only came in after knocking and asking for her permission. Most of the time she was alone.
She spent most of the time in just a corner of the suite. The bed alone was nearly as large as the whole of the van. Walking to the room where she was expected to tend to necessities seemed a formidable trek. She tried to remember the layout of her home and couldn’t. She suspected that these rooms were at least as large—and she knew that they were nicer, richer, stronger.
They were safe rooms.
But she still didn’t feel safe.
Justus came, and he tried to wheedle her into conversation. He brought her books. She had learnt to read before she had left home. Or learnt to read a little. The books he brought were full of strange words that she didn’t understand, and she read more slowly than he seemed to expect. He’d ask her opinion about the ending when she was hardly a quarter of the way through the story.
He never touched her. He had promised that he would not. He had promised that no one would. But she kept waiting for him to. She waited for him to force his lips to hers and suck her dry. She waited for him to force himself between her legs and leave her wet. He never did. After days of this, she wondered if he even wanted to. Was it possible she had been found by someone who did not? Did he like her so little?
I’m teetering on the edge of apologizing for exposing this character’s pain and subsequent confusion. She hurts. She’s hurt for a long time. I do not find her to be emotionally healthy, but I love her to her core.
I stole this line from Gwen at Apprentice, Never Master, who wrote “Black Sun” (1697 words). It’s late, but she knows why. I wrote this section of the story in time for at least Sunday. I had every intention of returning to it to make it into more of a story, but I seem to have misplaced this thread and my motivation, and I promised to update by midnight tonight. Perhaps later there will be a Part 2.